yet another trip to school for consulation wasted, as the teacher gets hogged selfishly by people of far superior capabilities that need definitely no more help than i do. i wonder why such megalomaniacs find it so pleasing to have all the resources by themselves, leaving the aspiring weak to rot in hell.
http://www.southtees.nhs.uk/Improvement%20Alliance/spread/background_files/image002.jpg
as seen from this curve taken from a sociology website, i would belong to the borderline of the late majority and the laggards ( i still pick up stuff better than a few yea?).
SO WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU DEPRIVING ME OF HELP YOU BASTARDS. ARE YOU TRYING TO GET ME OUT OF THIS PLACE? THE ONLY THING GETTING OUT IS YOUR BLOOD YOU BITCHES.
perhaps ive been trying too hard to get noticed by anyone.
as seen by this natural frequency curve (a simple metaphorical reference), if the frequency of my trying to get everyone to notice me is too much, its effect will drop to even lower than if i didnt do anything. hence im sure ive been trying too hard. also. it would have a negative effect.
perhaps. its something i done in my previous lives. as a buddhist i believe in reincaration, causes and effects yea?
its payback time, so be it. i'll stare it in the face.
maybe you think im thick-skinned everytime u see me around in school. not knowing shame by hanging around even though i realise the whole gang just hates me or something. theres that side of me you do not know. and dun even try to. it hurts. if you try, you're gonna get hurt too.
perhaps. this is the only true hearted post in my entire fucking blog.
