ah well. my first blog entry in school while i wait for her. (i shall start putting my trust in this stupid system again ever since my friendster acc was hacked) since when did they split up SPA skills into soliditary assessments? thats 7 assessments overall mind you.
had GP earlier today. rather terrible i can presume. what can you expect from an essay question that can be deciphered into 3 totally different denominations, and an AQ that no one can figure out what the fuck it wants.
read: "Discuss whether advertising is a necessary evil."
try breaking it down to your own meaning. see what you get.
ah well ESP has a new 24th anni guitar! i shall aim for that. the sound sample is not bad. go http://www.ultimate-guitar.com to find out. it should be under reviews.
speaking about anni-s, its our 1st month today haha. ah well. its the only monthly anni i will give a big fuck about, cause i go by years =]]]
alright shes done. off i go. then again, i never come back, for i have never left.
ah. once again i have awaked the ID within. the past of the history of yuehan.bad-timing action of speeches, horrendous actions of gestures, and unbalanced weighing of attention towards those who meant to get more.
the study of buddhism makes one void of desire, realise the concept of impermanence. hence, to learn to cherish. obviously for me, it leaves more to be desired itself, ironically. (*on a sidenote, theres this article in the sunday times like, a week or two ago. it clearly clarifies that the "buddha" isnt a god or omnipotent being. buddhists kneel and kowtow to buddhist statues because they respect and follow to their teachings, and try to make themselves "better", in a sense, human beings. so yeah to those who think buddha "bao you" everything and everyone just by praying to him.)
so the story goes, i have screwed up again. but of course not after learning what NOT to do. then again its not something i want to repeat. as the saying goes once AGAIN, stupid people learn from their own mistakes. smart people learn from stupid people's mistakes.
once again, sorry girl'afk. =] ~~~~~~~ part2:
dammit i got PES A for NS medical screening. despite all efforts to appear as unfit as possible, it all went down the drain when the MO looked at my flatfoot, paused a moment, and went to tick the PES A box. this means that i might end up in some elite force. which i wont want to. i prefer serving my country through moneh moneh means, not military means. ~~~
Part 3:
there was this girl. lets call her F. now there was this guy. called H. H is happily attached to another girl called M.
now one fine day, F's friends, lets name dummy variables from A, B, C D to Z not including abovementioned letters, decided to pull all 3 legs of H damn hard. it goes by F trying to "hook up" H for some entertainment. at first, H actually believed F's offer. but it didnt take long for H to realise F's character and based on past experiences, that it is all a hoax to diss off H and make him embarrassed and lose all dignity around school. now F fears H, for H seems as if he is fucking serious about the whole damn thing. and tries to "shake off" H, but to "no avail".
moral of the story. dont treat people as stupid. you end up as the stupid one. and the "other people" having the last laugh.
its uhhh about 3:20 in the morning, and im not sleeping. why?
because repenting, i am.
a champion is not one who never fails, but is one who never gives up, and is one who admit mistakes.
then what about an ultimate? ``` lesson i have learnt here, fellow couples, is to never. NEVER. boast about your "past adventures", no matter how fictious, and how paedophilic they are.
so here i am, repenting, repenting.
to the girl that has brought back my study momentum, to the girl that has brought back my smile and laughter that i have almost forsaken, to the girl that has brought me love, im sorry.
woke up this morning with a rather disturbing case of wheezing. havent had one for quite a long time already. so, being curious about what the fuck wheezing is about, go google!
had no time to do this yesterday night, but yeah now i shall, before i go off to kill minor zombies.
alright it started out at about 9pm when i was at RDE pool. there were this bunch of 3 ruffian-looking 13-14 year old ikan bilis punks and this hot girl that was with them. poor girl. alright after a short t-shirt incident which resulted the girl to reveal her "black laced bra" (actual words. however it turned out to be a sports bra -_-), the punks tried to act fierce and be like spiderman, only to be screwed by my colleague. they then went to relac one corner and act fierce among themselves. however in that same corner, there were a few malay boys and their cousin if i didnt remember wrongly. they look pre-teen still. there they were having some water-fun splashing at each other. then the chinese punks decided to act fierce to them. they had a long "talk" in the water, then proceeded up for the "match". the chinese dude even did a towel throw and gave some praying-mantis-stance wannabe. thats when my colleague came in and broke them up. (hes a bigger sized fellow, so hes better for the job you see)
okay so the kids went downstairs. then up came another colleague who's going home. he said a bunch of kids like want to fight at the staircase landing. then security came at our request. to what i know the little malay kids were cornered, but the girl got reinforcements, then the WHOLE family came. heres the funny part. the chinese kids COWERED and RAN away. came to HIDE at the swimming pool deck. then a few officers came and talked to them. the rest is history
*note: this is not a racist-intended story. just so happened that the punks were chinese and the kids were malay
the point of the whole story is, have you ever wondered what have we done to our youths? i mean, look at them. they pick fights cause they get splashed and their girl(s) are being irritated. have we moved so fast that we have left our youth to rot in their primitive instincts called the arms race? i have seen them rot. they rot like in hell.
honestly i was feeling a sense of fear when the konfrontasi was on. maybe i was too sheltered to ever witness or experience all these. but how about these kids? it seems to me they are more experienced at this than i am to PCC-ing. HAHA.
the government has long time ago made education compulsory. but according to them, isnt education supposed to make you a good contributive worker to singapore's economy? www.dictionary.com defines education as:
1.The act or process of educating or being educated. 2.The knowledge or skill obtained or developed by a learning process. 3.A program of instruction of a specified kind or level: driver education; a college education. 4.The field of study that is concerned with the pedagogy of teaching and learning. 5.An instructive or enlightening experience: Her work in the inner city was a real education
so, wheres the enlightenment? hence the whole point of education is being wasted here. the smarter kids go to jc and learn about things that they might never use in their entire lives. so can we assume the not-so-smart kids end up in the street like in the bronx? certainly not? think again. welcome to reality.
also we have to think. singapore today were built up by the ruffians of yesterday: our fathers mothers grandpas gramdmas. they arent as "refined" as us today at our age. fights happen, vices soar. a far cry from what "cultivated-ness" we have today.
so, apart from fighting for lifts at every storey, or more mrt stations or more GPP cash, let us not turn our backs on the very people who will carry us into our graves: our youth. something must be done for those who arent able to catch up with what the government wants us to chase. not only does it produce delinquents like these, it also kills people. many victorians have died this year. honor to them. for they have managed to escape from a vicious cycle.
lots of love, girl'afk =]]] was nice studying at where we did this morning. shall plan more of that next time.
Our first night out! like after 1 week. dates so far has never gone beyond 6pm, as cinderella has to go home for dinner. yeah, really enjoyed my evening with you girl'afk. although we scrapped the vodka. nevermind another time.
anyway, the concert was uhh much better than last year. at least they didnt have foreign choirs stealing the limelight unlike last year. and some hands and feet actions too! which reminds me of that very foreign choir. then was the musical called sunset boulevard. i would rather think of boulevard of broken dreams. then again. ill never walk alone again =]
at least right until i send her home haha. then i have to go home myself zzzz.
the teasings have died down, with them only choking back on tears as they face the reality called inferiority of themselves. die you losers. i will kill you. (from song of the same name by cannibal corpse) at least now my class met her. and the PAPARAZZISwill report about me. after all, the legendary sucker yuehan is happily coupled like a thermocouple.
next up! band concert. next friday. given the fact that one of the most major components of the band are victorians, its going to be good.
been up to no good lately. not that i wanted it. owed mrs neo 3 assignments but managed to rush out 2 within 50 minutes haha. i forgot where i put the last one. i think i stapled it with my notes which i left at home.
hmm. today we went about talkin about creating a testimonial for ourselves. reminds me of kewee and his cutting-and-pasting our testimonial drafts word for word. not to be arrogant but i received "rather good" comments by my past and present teachers, although im not sure what they think of me now after my fall in education. but rest assured i will rise once again. you just wait. meanwhile these 2 days was Operation Cancel Cancer! pretty slipshod adverts, but we managed to sell 158/200 items. thank you for those who supported the cause and fuck you to those who said no, except for the really broke ones. i wont help charities (not you charity) if im broke. as the chinese saying goes "the buddha of mud who crosses the river is akin to inability of self-sustainment, much less bless others"
ah well. bless myself then. not to forget bless her. and curse you.
i dont care who you are where you're from what you do as long as you get your filthy fucking hands off my girl'afk.
am i evil? yes. ~~
after a chat with jason "i have 15.8 inches biceps+triceps" chua during *ahem* work, i realised. my future, as much as i want it to be, may not be what i want it to be. like a science student may end up doing sales. or a business student ends up teaching. who knows. the sky's the limit. break it.
the stupid people follow the system and do well in it. the smart people bend the system and do well in it
the stupid people make mistakes and learn from it the smart people learn from the mistakes from the stupid ones.
uhh. happy 1 week girl? although its only 1 week -.- yea. manymanymany years and years to come =]]]
darn it. the 3 of you. better not spread unnecessary to others about us. zzz. new relationships are like drops of dew, fresh in the morning, gone in the afternoon. critical stage. so lets make the best of it girl'afk =]
a few things i realised though.
1. theres another yue han in mjc zzz. johnathan chan yue han. hmmm. chan yue han. doesnt that sound familiar. (never mind SHE's another friend of mine) and hes shortlisted for mjc scholarship! good. dont be like me. a useless bum who's now at the 5th, 6th piece of paper.
2a. china guys/women (at least the ones i encountered) have no qualms about voicing their opinions in the most unpleasant situations. take for example last sunday. was at national library studying with her. with the study lounge filled WITH VJC STUDENTS i decided to go to the general library at B1. there we found some slots to sit at. then there was this china woman who at first left all her stuff there. including her phone which was in her bag. 1 person, 2 seats. i should have stolen that bag. haha. then when she came back, i was discussing physics with bell, and then she suddenly looked up and "shhh keep quiet" then i half revealed the universal sign of fuck to her. after that she was fidgeting non stop. tapping feet, humming, headbanging (i didnt know china people can headbang to classical music) and i was like staring at her. however she was still oblivious. there you go.
2b. next was what happened just now on the way home. on bus 53. there were this 2 china WOMEN again. from NYP OPERATIONAL THERAPY course. anyone knows about that? anyway they wanted to squeeze up the already squeezed bus. i had to nudge myself to this spot where the farecard machine used to be. then they did something every mjc, even non-mjc student felt fucked up with. they used the rich-lady-wants-to-shoo-people-off-wave and said loudly, as if with content "move behind!" then basically everyone ignored them and they had to be content about their fat asses blocking the door. good job people.
3. VJC people are a bunch of muggers. zzz. you should have seen that study lounge. either its a uni/poly student doing his/her thesis (i heard certain polytechnic courses also requires thesis reports), or its VJC. some secret society huh. secret mugging society. SMS. haha.
4. even though its only been a few days, i realised ive found the fair lady (okay not so fair =P) that i cherish so. =] lots of love, girl'afk. Disclaimer: to protect the privacy of parties involved certain names have been changed.
Naheuy
Hana Fishy <3
Samick Guitar
Victorian
[Nil Sine Labore]
Meridian [Mugger]
HANA THE HERMIT
Wants
Class 3 Licence
Honda Jazz/Fit
Maybe a Nissan GTR =x
Or a EvoX will do too =p
Sony Bravia HDTV
Xbox 360
To pick up guitar skills again
To build up a noob investment portfolio
Double degree!
