Friday, October 31, 2008

it is this night again, when ghouls, vampires, princess fairies and kinky undies roam the streets for candy. its hell-o-ween.. (kinda makes me remember of that blast of a concert a few months ago)
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its already 10 days to my ORD, and though i felt i have achieved much in most aspects of my life, i felt that my thinking really has and will continue to grow up. and of course i will grow up as a person. from learning different virtues, to knowing when to dodge incoming arrows.

after talking and meeting to many people in the course of ns, i have learnt much. all that pursuit for top class personality and intelligence, is it worth fighting for? i mean, ive seen many who end up living satisfying lives even though they do not come from the 'well-bred' kind of life. then again, i realise that everyone would have a path to take, and we would choose it on our own. it isnt about making the riches, or having 400 virgin wives, nor reaching paradise. its about being SATISFIED.

obviously someone who's about to get out of my life right now isnt satisfied with anything i do. too bad, like it or not he still will only see me for another week. or maybe less i hope.
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almighty, do you hear me?

im afraid and tensed up because you didnt reply my previous letter. i get very uptight everytime things dont go my way. my subordinates, especially the senior ones, arent making things easy for me too. one is overweight and only floats around, but the other one hit the last straw. he's incorrigible! just because he is going to ORD in less than 2 weeks, he gives me rubbish! always trying to skive! and he thinks he's so damn smarter than me. i hate it when people deny that im the greatest leader around. even the higher ups dont seem to agree with me on that aspect. i feel stressed and depressed. so i guess the only way out right now is to vent all my frustration and anger at him, so that he can have a taste of my wrath. hahahaha! i've already overworked him anyway, giving him a 3 man job. but who cares, im the boss! please reply my call soon almighty. fanks!

Grrrr...10:17 PM

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Wednesday, October 22, 2008

changed my skin, thought the previous one got kinda boring and screwed up. noticed how your cursor will disappear? but anyway, looking at domokun always sorts of cheer me up with some cheap but profound humor.
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(the following is purely fictional, and any resemblance to the living or dead is purely coincidental)

dear almighty,

i have a problem. i'm nowhere near youthful anymore, at 30. i'm still single, and through years of means and ways, i still find no solace in any girl. i still live with my mother and sister in a single flat apartment, and im afraid that she scolds me for not cleaning my room and helping out with housework, so i must go home punctually to do my share promptly.

i've not been really successful at work either. my interpersonal relationships with my subordinates are uptight at best. i want my superiors to credit and appreciate me, but i dont know how they feel about me. i tend to stress out easily over mediocre performance, because i want the best for myself and only myself. it gets to a level of ridicule, and everyone seems to hate me for it. i subconsiously pass this stress and panic to everyone around me, especially those that clear the most shit for me. some can manage to work as per se, but there are those that somehow decrease in performance. i hate it when other people cant take high levels of stress as good as me.

so please help me, i need to change everyone around me so that they dont do stupid things like taking medical leaves or being blur, and make me stressed out so often. also please help me extend my contract, because although i say i dont want it, i must have it, because i cant do shit outside of where i work now. please please, fanks!

Grrrr...11:45 PM

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Saturday, October 11, 2008

went to clarke quay recently, and being a swakoo person that i am, i didnt realise how much it has changed. i know of the new 'the central' mall, but i didnt know how many nice pubs and restaurants there were! wow, i must really explore once i get out of ns. 29 more days!


started the day off with lunch at waraku. ah dont try the soup pastas. they taste weird. but the pastas aint the only thing tasty in the restaurant ;)




after which we went around walking the area, and of course snapping!


help help! the statue is falling!


lampposts are very good props of photography. especially coming from a noob like me. haha



after which we went to her stylist for a trim. looks good after that =]


ah another rare moment. you never see me eating seafood except the occasional fish and chips. well, heres the occasion. i still prefer the 'best fish and chips' over the 'new york fish and chips' though.
wah!


after going to the esplanade soooo many times, i did not realise that theres actually a roof terrace zz. -.- so finally, we ended the day there. good place for photos though i'd wish we had better gear to take better night photos. block cameras are very lousy in night mode.

Grrrr...1:11 PM

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Sunday, October 05, 2008

with 36 days to go, there is little time for rejoice, or perhaps remorse. while most people say its a waste of time ( i counted down from 500++ days mind you), i'd say it really teaches you things beyond avoiding arrows and acting like a wimp.

had to grab some fresh air lately, or else it isnt very healthy staying on antibiotics and getting cooped up at home. hence, visited hortpark! though it almost didnt go on in the morning, i did enjoy the day after all =]

the first time i got out ever since that stupid pain in the ass came about.
she never fails to look great in pictures =]
see what i mean?


flowers flowers!
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had to check out the motorshow too, even though everyone's been saying it aint that fantastic. well, it wasnt, though there were just a few cars i HAD to take pictures of.

like the nissan GTR!
and the 350Z fairlady roadster!
but well the most important part of the picture is still her =D
when are you getting your licence ms cordee?
ah i can keep on dreaming about owning a car now haha.

Grrrr...11:56 PM

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Wednesday, October 01, 2008

right. in case anyone still hasnt known what has been causing my hiatus, its this damn fuck of a condition called a "perianal abscess". basically, an abscess is a bloody (literally too) big pimple filled with bacterial infection under your skin. an anal abscess... well you should know. it was a big pain in MY ass. you can all go wiki about it. tomorrow ill be going for the procedure of draining everything out.. gonna be out for a week, which could be good and bad.. judging by the fact that theres rarely anyone around who can get things done in camp. then again, too many things happened at a go this 2nd half of the year.. i could use some prolonged shut-eye. especially this condition.. i havent slept well for 4 days for it. imagine something playing 1/16 double bass pedals on your ass at night while you sleep.

well from now onwards, i condemn polyclinic GPs and MOs, cause other than gg for medical reviews and reviews and getting status slips from them, theres nothing much they can do for me, much less fix something that could have been fixed so long ago. took me (mum actually) 100 odd smackers to cure my pain in the ass.

and my muscles, however minute they were before i fell sick with diarrhea after eating the pita bread from geylang serai's pasar malam, are even more minute now. i cant even carry delia =[ time to work out!

Grrrr...1:04 AM

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