as the light appears tomorrow, we set out to war. our first steps towards a greater future we fight.
fear not, for we are not alone. our predecessors cheer us on. those that follow, are also fighting their own war.
the age old question. why examinations.
its because there are stupid fucking liars and slackers all around the world that do not conscript (correct usage?) to guidelines on proper learning. but oh well. at least exams gives me rice to put on the table in the future when i score in them. thats the way higher levels of authority want it all over the world.
damm. i gotta "tactfully" phrase my words nowadays. people spying on blogs.
the aftermath of the war: physics E chemistry C Maths D CLAO C5 GP C5
the planned retaliation:
physics B chemistry A Maths A CLAO B3 (for A lvls) GP B3 (the rest is by mid year score)
aint the human race strange. among one race, we have many races, and among these many races, we have many dialects, and among these many dialects, we have many clans. but more often than not, we come under scrutiny from non other than one another. though it is proven that we walked out from africa. i still visioned humans one day to be like the lil green men in toy story. linked together in mind by the "uni mind". a mofo big sphere with some psychic powers shit. oh well. round one. fight.
also another strange thing. people act like they dun care when they do a lot. and vice versa. so. all apologies to the gal that dropped mi a note of concern. only to be shooed away by me. i do care. thank you.
in the spate of blog raids that led to convictions and the uproar of scrutiny, im glad to say something:
at least im safe cause no one ever reads this shit. except myself.
theres this little phrase 成也萧何,败也萧何. it means that the same thing/person/factor can be your success, or your failure at the same time. i dont know if it makes any sense in this case. but here goes. these days those new friendships forged in this foreign land of a meridian jc, the very ones that I treasure. Have started to rot. rot from the inside out. It shows little warning, goes on unnoticed unless u do some soul-searching.
why would this happen. Answers, I do not have, and not certain on its arrival. Maybe a short term solution to prevent the sublimation of my sanity? Or just my own fault that a supposed lifetime allegiance gone wasted?
I think im getting demented.
an ol' NCC/SAF song I suddenly recalled. Though there are a few characters that unwelcome me in the unit (and eventually screwed up and went to certain jcs that are in tampines and serangoon), I still reminisce the times i was in VS NCC (land). somehow the 3rd verse hits me real hard.
Training to be soldiers To fight for our lives Once in our life Two years of our time
Have you ever wondered? Why we must serve? Cause we love our land And we want it to be free, to be free (hya~!)
Looking all around us Couples everywhere Couples having fun While we're holding guns.
Have you ever wondered? Why we must serve? Cause we love our land And we want it to be free, to be free
Training in the jungle Spiders everywhere Spiders having fun While we're holding guns
Have you ever wondered? Why we must serve? Cause we love our land And we want it to be free, to be free (HYA~!)
my (supposed) first post after promotional exams. cant be bothered to check.
i have just realized that i have wasted the entire academic year: 1. skirt chasing anyone without a prick in vain 2. over-devoting my time to games, while inefficiently playing
all these would have mattered if i didnt 3. SPEND ENOUGH TIME REVISING.
seriously i might have followed khairu's footsteps and self-retain myself. but somehow i foolishly chose to march on. wait. foolish? i dont know. time will tell. whether the assassin would be assassinated by the likes of time.
today was a really bad day. i couldnt feel worse to smile when i didnt want to. i despise the times when i cant show how i feel. the SUPEREGO refuses the ID to be let out and manifest the EGO. sigmund freud there. anyway. while everyone i know was celebrating their "A" for maths, i was down there. wondering where have i faulted?
皇天不付有心人 (i hope im correct)
let us all fight for our future. together. hand in hand. just you and me. my love.
Spend all your time waiting for that second chance for a break that would make it okay there's always one reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day I need some distraction oh beautiful release memory seeps from my veins let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here
so tired of the straight line and everywhere you turn there's vultures and thieves at your back the storm keeps on twisting you keep on building the lie that you make up for all that you lack it don't make no differenceescaping one last time it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel fly away from here from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel may you find some comfort here
i have just come to realise that politics amongst girls are more menacing and underlying than that of guys. for guys, if they dont like you, they have plenty of ways to show it, and plenty of will to make it happen. for girls. unless youre a girl. you wont know what happened.
but hey. by that, it means im a big wussy. -.-
i dont know. i think im turning primal whilst all 4 elements of force and pressure come from the source and places attacks on the base. whenever some girl i got pleasant inclinations towards get all nice and cozy with another guy. i dont know. i just want some blood.
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.
3 days of worked-upness has past. now its another 3.
even as a 221-er i fear for my future. i actually dreamt of going to the school of applied science, tp. (i think thats what its called la) if fate wants to play with me. it found the wrong playmate dude. i shall attempt to savlage the situation with my last 2 papers.
By Le Chantelier's Principle, when the exam results gets decreased, the system will counteract the change by shifting equilibrum to the right to remove the excess bad results. hence more good results will be formed.
recently theres this new "scandal" <--note the "" of a certain girl from a certain cca, which certain guys from that certain cca starts relating her to me. pretty obvious that she doesnt want to be associated to me so yea. i apolgize if i unwittingly caused any distress in you.
and i just noticed my BGmusic now makes a good loop track. now that we came to music. hey hey. i found a new favourite band. called Fort Minor. it was started by Mike Shinoda, the famous rapper-rocker from Linkin Park, not too long ago. released a few singles onto mtv. cut a debut album. now its gonna be out on november 22nd (if im not mistaken). kids. dont download music. go buy it.
did you hear? i got rejected by IBN for the Youth Research Program. (excerpt) "...we are running at full capacity..." yea. full capacity of people that have better common test results than me. now i can go develop myself in more meaningful ways. like trying to get a job at Wild Wild Wet.
this is taken from colorgenics.com. it tells u about ur mood. tells so much truth in mine.
You are trying desperately to prove yourself. You are going at it hammer and tongs in order to get your own way. You oppose any sort of restriction or opposition to your own point of view in the belief that this could prove you how self determined you are.
Recently you have been experiencing considerable mental anguish and turmoil. You are bored and discontent. Nothing seems to be going right for you. Even your relationships aren't working out and you don't quite know which way to turn.
Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavor but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.
For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.
Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo. There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think about it - and let go.
Naheuy
Hana Fishy <3
Samick Guitar
Victorian
[Nil Sine Labore]
Meridian [Mugger]
HANA THE HERMIT
Wants
Class 3 Licence
Honda Jazz/Fit
Maybe a Nissan GTR =x
Or a EvoX will do too =p
Sony Bravia HDTV
Xbox 360
To pick up guitar skills again
To build up a noob investment portfolio
Double degree!
